Getting back on that horse...

This spring has been really bad for my weight loss program. Not having the head together means not getting the body together.

Ever since my meds were changed last summer, binge eating has been a problem. Makes me wish I could go back to what I was taking then, but since we stopped because the old mood disorder was flaring mightily, that's likely not a solution.

Right now, I'm trying to battle my way through on sheer knowledge and will power. Not easy. In fact, it's damned difficult.

I checked an online BMR calculator, and it comes up about 1600 calories a day. That means eating around 1100-1200 calories a day plus doing a bit of exercise to lose. I know I can do the low-cal thing. Tricking myself into doing exercise will be the more challenging piece. Both at once? Hmmmmmmmm....

I've been making jewelry again, the past two weekends. This is the new stuff posted on Facebook yesterday.

Wish me light eating and good sales.

Still at it in the new year

Another long pause...

I thought I was long out of the Forest of Crazy, but stuff just keeps cropping up. It isn't disabling, but it is disconcerting.

Poundage has returned--not all of it, but enough to make me physically uncomfortable. That's partly because I refuse to buy larger clothes. Why humor this damn fat? I will be cruel to it; perhaps that will help hurry it on its way now that I'm paying attention again to what goes in my mouth.

Schoolin'

It's been a month of acclimatization...getting back into work routines and schedules. The hardest part has been getting up so early when it's so difficult to drop off at a decent time at night. 


My last visit to Dr. R led to a change in sleep medication, which seems to be helping. I can go without it on the weekends, when no one cares what time I show up, but during the week, there's no way--I'm back on the Deficit Train unless I have help.




This morning I was bright-eyed after the second decent night's sleep. Of course, I now feel like it's the middle of the night at 8 pm, but at least I'm getting acclimated to the early work schedule again.

Today is all-day class at the local National Safety Council. I'm going to get my Advanced Safety Certification before the end of next year so I have credentials to go along with my abilities. Occupational Safety is near and dear to my heart, and if I'm going to do any kind of certification program, this makes the most sense.

There's another class in December (and, I hope, one in November), and then I'll need to take 2 four-day courses and at least one more one-day course next year. Then I can take the exams. The information from these classes will make me more effective at my job, and the certification may provide the means for advancement.

It was nice to be able to sleep in (until 7 am!). The class doesn't start until 9 am, and its location is only about 5 miles away from home, so it won't take long to get there.

Thank you, Dear Kenna, for your kind words and understanding. I just want to feel "all better, right now".  You're right, it will take time.

So I did WATP 30 Minute Walk, and I'm all sweaty, but drinking hot coffee (DECAF!) anyway, and eating a nectarine. Yesterday, I changed a couple of light bulbs, vacuumed the living room, family room and dining room, and ran a duster over things. That, and my post here, plus a marathon of Bejeweled Blitz on facebook were my grand accomplishments for the day.

Today, I'd like to get some more jewelry made. I was trying a new design last weekend that just wouldn't work. It's laying forlornly on my work table, patiently waiting for me to transform it into something beautiful. Maybe I'll be able to do that after a bit more coffee.

Sorry, Blog.

I've been avoiding and neglecting you. If you were a pet, you could be dead by now. If you were a plant, maybe dead, maybe straggling along on your last legs. But you're electrons, and live on in the Great Out There until I come back to visit you again.

I think I've let up on writing because of the return to full-time work. The jewelry making has fallen behind, too. It will be interesting to find out whether time will help acclimate me to the work schedule, then let me phase the other activities back in, or whether I'll go back to feeling tired all the time. The former would be preferable to the latter.

It's a good thing I don't own a dog.